Friday, May 22, 2009

Oh yah, today is my anniversary

I guess once I decide somethings a good idea, there's no stopping me. (hence the 2 posts in one day) I like the word hence. Did I even use or spell it correctly? And another thing, is there a spell check on this blog? Anyway, Today is my 16th Anniversary. I wish I knew how to get a picture from my photo album into the computer and then onto here. We are just so darn cute. My husband was only 19 when we got married. I was much older......21! I just watched our wedding video with my two youngest girls and they thought it was the greatest thing. They, of course, couldn't believe how skinny I was, and that I sure wore alot of makeup. I really didn't have that much makeup on, it's just that I only wear mascara now. All the eyeshadow, blush and the bright pink lipstick must have looked a little shocking to them. Did I mention how skinny I was? I can't believe I thought I needed to lose weight back then. I cried watching parts. When my little sister-in-law sang, seeing my Grama Helen(who is no longer with us), dancing with my Dad.........but I really choked up and one part when me and my hubby were just looking into eachothers smiling faces not realizing the camera was catching us......we look so full of hope and happiness and love. I wanted to talk to myself and say remember and enjoy these easy days together. I wanted to warn myself of some tough choices that would be coming up and tell myself what I should do differently. It was weird. It was also good though to see us so in love. That love is still there I just needed to see it so clearly, like it was in that video. Hoping that today when he gets home from work, I'll catch a glimps of that cute 19 year old and he'll get a glimps of that skinny older woman!

the real me

Well, I guess you might as well know the real me and not the me that I wish I was. I started this blog in September 2008. I thought it would be a great way for me to write about all the emotional stuff I was feeling about letting my daughter go to public school. Then here came the real me. The one that always second guesses herself, doubts, doesn't believe her ideas have any value............so I stopped the blog. I thought who is even going to read this? Why are you writing to nobody? Who does this? Fast forward to March 2009. I was looking for a website about publishing children's book (more on that someday) and somehow came across this blog http://tanyadennisbooks.com/ From that blog, I have found so many amazing blogs. Mostly Mothers like me who love to write, love Jesus, love people and friends. They just had the simple idea to write. To encourage. To laugh. To cry. I can't tell you enough how this has changed my life. Somedays I read exactly what I need that day. Other times they make me laugh and forget about wanting to cry. Alot of times they make me cry and help me put my own issues in perspective and I end up lifting them up in prayer instead of myself. I had a good idea. I just didn't believe in myself enough to do it.......the real me. I hope to keep blogging. Yes about my daughter's highschool experiences, I got alot to catch you up on..............and maybe more about myself. I really have no idea how to even run this blog yet, so I hope you won't mind the plainness. Thank you blogging women. here is just a few that I read every day: http://nieniedialogues.blogspot.com/ http://momsministryandmore.blogspot.com/ http://wannabepublished.blogspot.com/ http://coffeegal.blogspot.com/ http://carpoolqueen.wordpress.com/ http://lysaterkeurst.blogspot.com/ http://www.marlataviano.com/