Monday, August 30, 2010

A change. A big change.

When I started this blog, almost exactly 2 years ago, it was because I was struggling a bit with the fact that my oldest daughter was going to public school for the very first time. I had been homeschooling her for the past 8+ years. When her little sisters came along I had homeschooled them also.

2 years ago I would have never thought that I would ever even consider sending my, now 4th grade and 1st grade, daughters to public school.

That is exactly what will be happening tomorrow.

Our life has gone through a change.
Maybe I have gone through a change as well.

I am so overly emotional and sad and quite possibly a little heart broken about it.
I have prayed for our circumstances to change.
I have prayed for the finances to send my little ones to a private Christian based school.
I have prayed for the desire and strength to be able to do it all, work and homeschool.

And the whole time I kept getting more job offers and kept getting introduced to some amazing people who work at the public school.

In the midst of my worrying and crying, I do sense enough peace about it though.

I am scared that this is the biggest mistake I could make.
And believe me, people have told me that. Satan has told me that.

But I am reminded by God, that He was not scared when He knit these sweet babies together in MY womb. He saw this day already. He didn't do anything to stop it.

So tomorrow at around 8am, if your out and about dropping your own children off at school or standing at the bus stop with them or sitting down at the table at home with them I could sure use your prayers.


Mrs. Claus said...

I think at some point we have to trust that God knows what He's doing in our lives. Maybe we don't like it and it's uncomfortable for a reason. These feelings make us "change", and "change" ALWAYS makes new things happen.

I LOVE CHANGE! It's what I look forward to, because "change" is normally where I see God. Good and bad are labels we choose to put on change, but really change is what we make it.

Maybe the change is not for you and your girls, but that someone at public school will be changed by them. . . something to think about.

Praying for you!

Carpool Queen said...

It's going to be fine. He's called you to this season, He's equipped them for the changes ahead, and He's working it all together for His glory and for the good of others.

I just prayed for your peace.

Hugs -

Kellie said...

Praying for you! And know that public school is not an a matter of fact my kids wouldn't be where they are at educationally today had they not been to public school in those early years...God is in the public schools! He is everywhere, and his plans are far better than any plans we could I'm praying for your peace, and assurance, and that the girls will have an excellant first day!

mer@lifeat7000feet said...

So how did it go? Did you all survive?

I think that Kellie and Susan are right--public school isn't so bad. God is there too! I hope it went wonderfully for you all!

Irritable Mother said...

I read your most recent post before I read this one...And am glad that things are going well for your girls.
Yes. God saw this coming and He didn't do anything to stop it. Many, many children have gone through public schools and done just fine. I trust yours will do the same.
God is big enough, and powerful enough, and wise enough, and good enough to make it so.

Love you!